Category: Life of Hilary
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Us.
We had a day date yesterday. Slept in, got coffee, then visited my sister and brother-in-law. Picked up some flowers, and then visited mom. Her headstone was very over grown. Cue the fire ants and itchy leaves. We pulled up as many as we could and told Dad to bring trimmers next time he is…
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Feb
its February. best month of the year, my birthday month, and black history month. its hard to help someone from 500 miles away. I miss my best friend. she’s hurting and I can’t be there to help.
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Fear
I don’t recognize you. I’ve been deleting photos and seeing our smiling faces and yet I don’t recognize you. I don’t remember how you made me feel. I don’t remember how I made you feel. I don’t remember what it felt like to love you and lose you. it scares me. how can 3 years…
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i am
I am depression. I am pain I am loneliness and fear I am tired. I went to a chiropractor yesterday and I learned a lot about my body, my nerves and how everything is connected. She also mentioned to me that she believes she is a clairvoyant. someone who has a gift, to see and…
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photos
why do I have so many photos of you ? how could I have spent 3 years of my life with you and now its all gone ? how do those photos mean nothing to me ? thats what scares me the most. the fact that when I look at these photos, as I am…
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Gratitude
ive been a super go getter lately and I have always noticed that I journal more when im sad or feeling down but I want to journal all the time. Remember to always be grateful for what ever season of life you are in because nothing lasts forever.
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Protection.
I have to protect you. I have hurt too many. I can not hurt anymore. I still miss him, a lot. I still feel guilty, everyday. I should have never pushed him away so much. I should have gotten help, because I wasn’t getting it from him. I have to protect you from me. I…
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12/12
wow, I actually have viewers? thats pretty cool. hi new friends. I started this blog as a type of therapy for myself because sometimes I want people to know how I feel and maybe, just maybe, it’ll help them too. today was a long day. I got up early and got to work around 8,…
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Midnight
im so tired right now but I want to be better at posting more regularly. today was a VERY good day. I was productive, but not to the point of exhaustion, and I had a really fun time at work tonight. I do miss my boyfriend a lot. I really want him to move here…
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December 4th.
as I typed that I realized its mine and my boyfriends 3 month-aversary. feels like a lot longer. I am watching a new murder documentary on Netflix. its really good and super intriguing. I had a bad anxiety attack today so I wanted to document it. I should have seen the signs. We talked about…
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