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Us.
We had a day date yesterday. Slept in, got coffee, then visited my sister and brother-in-law. Picked up some flowers, and then visited mom. Her headstone was very over grown. Cue the fire ants and itchy leaves. We pulled up as many as we could and told Dad to bring trimmers next time he is…
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grateful
I need to learn how to be more grateful for this life. Almost everything is great in life right now and yet I still want/need more. Always more. My job is alright, not my favorite but I don’t romanticize it anymore, I am not grateful for it anymore. Is that why I change jobs so…
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Welcome Back
well hello there. its been 2 years. we are now in March of 2025, which sounds terrifying. Z and I live in our own apartment now and are over the moon in love still. going on 3 years and I would still die for him every day. everything I have ever been through has been…
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Feb
its February. best month of the year, my birthday month, and black history month. its hard to help someone from 500 miles away. I miss my best friend. she’s hurting and I can’t be there to help.
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Fear
I don’t recognize you. I’ve been deleting photos and seeing our smiling faces and yet I don’t recognize you. I don’t remember how you made me feel. I don’t remember how I made you feel. I don’t remember what it felt like to love you and lose you. it scares me. how can 3 years…
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i am
I am depression. I am pain I am loneliness and fear I am tired. I went to a chiropractor yesterday and I learned a lot about my body, my nerves and how everything is connected. She also mentioned to me that she believes she is a clairvoyant. someone who has a gift, to see and…
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photos
why do I have so many photos of you ? how could I have spent 3 years of my life with you and now its all gone ? how do those photos mean nothing to me ? thats what scares me the most. the fact that when I look at these photos, as I am…
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Gratitude
ive been a super go getter lately and I have always noticed that I journal more when im sad or feeling down but I want to journal all the time. Remember to always be grateful for what ever season of life you are in because nothing lasts forever.
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okay this might be a long post, and I probably wont even finish it tonight, because I am very tired. my period is coming up this week so I have been very emotional and I can tell its coming. I have been having my chest pain again, but its rare and doesn’t last long. I…
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Protection.
I have to protect you. I have hurt too many. I can not hurt anymore. I still miss him, a lot. I still feel guilty, everyday. I should have never pushed him away so much. I should have gotten help, because I wasn’t getting it from him. I have to protect you from me. I…
Finding Happiness With Hilly
Searching for happiness everyday, and hoping my experiences may help others.
Finding Happiness With Hilly 